February 9, 2010
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6:15am.
the alarm goes off for the first time. I don’t really bother getting up. it’s too cold. too dark. I have the strongest wish to cancel the day.
6:52am.
last chance to get up on time.
7:34am.
gulping down hot coffee. or a bowl of green pea soup like today. I had so much coffee last night, I didn’t need any in the morning. new strategy.
12:49pm.
one minute before lunch.
3:29pm.
one minute before end of school.
5:13pm.
still hanging around, getting some work done so I don’t have to carry home those 600 pages thick books. starbucks. the barista looks at me like I am crazy, but there’s a smile on his face. triple tall latte.
7:16pm.
on the way home from somewhere.
9:11pm.
starting homework, reading feeds, doing ten things at the same time.
2:02am.
thinking it’s time to give up and go to bed.
3:03am.
falling asleep but still being aware of everything. images from the day still before my eyes.
6:15am.
REPEAT.
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